// Tuesday, November 22
lotsa things have been happening.
yet it seems like nothing has at all.
here i sit in the office, cutting and pasting, with the song "
Deep and Meaningless" by
Rooster playing in my iPod, my mind can't help but run..
funny thing this is,
fate. you often hear people say "
It's fated. Wah.. Damn fated lah!" what exactly is it? is it fate that had decided for me to end a long and loving relationship? is it fate that brought new people into my life? is it fate that my feelings are morphing..? i'm really confused myself. i feel i live in 2 worlds at the same time- the past and the future. now who said it can't be possilbe huh. i can feel my past haunting me. it may be troubling, but yet i feel warm and this certain familiarity that's like no other.. when i look into the future, it is so very enticing and refreshing. but yet, uncertain..
but then again, can i point at fate and say it was his fault that caused such confusion in my life? i guess it all boils down to my own
choice too. but choosing the future, is it really for the better..? i'm so unsure about myself, i think im going mad. but i guess i've made my decision. and my feelings tell me to give it a shot. im just really afraid of hurting people again.. especially those who are special in my life.
alright. i better be back to working..
ciao.
scripted at 10:46 AM
