// Sunday, December 11
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never ever wanna work in shenton way when i grow older. no way. corporate careers ain't my thing. the boring outfits, the mundane days.. i feel i age faster as i work day after day in DBS. goodness. i don't wanna become old and wrinkly! and i already have a wrinkle under my eye. i think. it looks like one.. but yeah. the creative industry is where i belong. but besides the mundane days in shenton way, i've had one great great great day on friday. that's right.
dance. :) how it sets me free..
you know, sometimes its so strange how two persons differ. in regard to a strong and weak individual. strong in a sense that he is full of pride and posseses undestructable beliefs and principles and will and a really strong mentality. weak in a sense that he is easily swayed, and soft-hearted and a push-over and just unable to stand up for his own beliefs and rights. which is of a better nature do you think? a person may say he'll never let down his pride to do something he deems a show of weakness, but really, is it all that bad to let down your pride sometimes? a person may say there is no need to believe in other people's beliefs, but is it all that bad to try to understand? on the other hand, why can't one stand for himself and be strong in what he believes? why does he have to be so unsure of himself all the time? i guess everything has to be done in moderation. a good balance of both characteristics is the best. but most people just fall to either extremes. cos if there was any one person who possess an exact equal balance of both, that person must be perfect. and nobody is ever perfect. bah.. just a random thought. 'cos i think i fall into the weak category. and i don't think it's doing me any good. but sometimes when i tell myself to be stronger, i feel i'll lose my compassion. somehow, being strong to me is so scary sometimes.. it makes you so cold, so harsh.. but it's all about choice huh. it's alway all about choice. you choose how you want to be. you choose how you should feel. you choose your destiny. mmm.
i guess i chose to let myself get the better of me. to let my heart lead my mind. tt's why im so easily swayed all the time. when can i have a better control of my emotions.. rhetorical question i know. cos we all know i'll be dead by the time i can do that. hmmm. oh god. i really have to be stronger. snap out of it michelle..
ciao.
scripted at 1:13 AM
