// Tuesday, December 27
i'm down with a flu. tragic.. i can't even enjoy the rest of my holiday without having to rub my nose with a piece of moist tissue paper and making it raw and sore. alright. a bit too graphic there. but yes. tragic.. and on top of that, im shedding (yes like you tanny!). i can hear "crisp crisp crisp" everytime i scratch my back. flakes and flakes of dry, dead, decaying skin. damn the sunburn. but at least i have a good tan! thanks to tanny's suntan lotion. :)
moving on, i stayed at home the whole of today. sick pale girl i am.. (sab's favourite line) but i managed to make some earrings and necklace. i'm kinda worried about Tzarist next year. especially when it's gonna be my j2 year. hectic and stressful, as many would say.. i am totally dreading it. considering how i have already completely forgotten what i have learnt in the past 2005. i really need to save the last 2 days of the year to recap what i've learnt. and being in a good class ain't helping at all. yes. i think it's time to get a stressball.
anyhoo, i was pensively sitting by my window and i recollected some memories. they weren't exactly sad memories, but they left me nostalgic. and i had a revelation. memories are so important to me. people may choose to forget painful ones. but i would keep 'em all. 'cos as days go by, i see myself changing, likewise the people around me. we become more solitary gradually. closing into ourselves, we drift away from each other.. and as this cold ice wall close in on us, memories is the furnace burning behind these walls. to me, memories is what keeps me alive. it warms me so.. lets me remember to have compassion again.. mmm.
and you know what i realise? i realise im a visual person you know? my thoughts always come along with pictures, graphics, illustrations.. i really do picture 'em in my mind as i process my thoughts, and even typing right now. so maybe i am dramatic with my words, but i really do picture them! exactly how i describe it. so it isn't really drama mama is it..? oh well, shrugs.
oh yes!
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL! a lil late, but what the heck. is the season of love. :)
ciao.
scripted at 12:38 AM
