// Thursday, March 23
flash of the light
i wasn't sure how it happened..
i was so afraid to cross the road.
i never had problems jay-walking.
but today, i thought i saw myself being banged down by a car.
the lights coming from the cars started to scare me.
my feet were rooted to the floor.
and i don't know if it was because lethargy took over me to the point where i couldn't control my body.
or was i really so scared that i couldn't budge at all.
im not trying to exaggerate.
i was really scared.
i really believed i was going to die, just that moment.
i just knew i was going to get knocked down..
i don't even know how to begin describing how i felt.
maybe it was something like those jerks you get in your dreams-
where you fall off a building and you find yourself jerking on your bed.
and bolts up feeling as if it really did happened..
i think i'm just tired.
but i'm not sleeping.. why..
i have no idea.
it's 3.16am.
i'm wide awake.
i've got unfinished homework piling up on my desk.
but here i am.
disturbed.
scripted at 3:10 AM