// Tuesday, May 30
Right or Wrong?
the 2 closest persons in my life often tell me that i always think i'm right and that i don't fight for my point, to convince them what i truly feel.
and so i decided to do some self-reflection!
(
as lame as it sounds)
so i was thinking, who actually thinks that they're wrong most of the time?
ok, of course there are exceptions;
people who feel that they're fatuous most of the time and basically having almost zilch self-esteem.
but besides those people, i am pretty sure most people wouldn't like thinking that they're wrong.
everybody has pride and dignity,
it is just to what extent right?
as for me, i realised i always assume that i am giving in, and admitting that i'm wrong when i finally lose in a debate with my friends.
but deep down, (
and probably pretty obvious to some)
i did not give in whole-heartedly.
instead, it was just a gesture to brush off the topic because i know i'm already on the losing end.
haha!
i know.. i suck at debating.
but yet, still put up a dignified front.
you can't blame me..
although i try to seem like i don't care if i lose or not, deep down, i do.
human nature.
so all in all. there are 2 approaches i can take.
either i stop this pretending, and show that i do care that i lose in an arguement.
or i can just shut up and stop being so opinionated when my opinions do not stand. (according to them)
although i do think that there is sense to my opinions, i often find myself struggling to put across what i truly mean to say.
but sometimes, i also find myself thinking a bit
"un-commonsensical" as they would put it.
i don't know, maybe i am weird.
but pertaining to the comments my friends gave me,
how can i convince them?
maybe because i don't have a good command of english, and my sentence structure is horrendous.
(you can tell from my blog entries)
i can never find the right words and expressions to convince them.
or maybe the root of the problem lies with my opinions in the first place.
they don't make sense.
possibly. i do agree.
so maybe in those cases, i should really keep my weird thoughts to myself.
but how can i convince them, when they are so convinced by their own opinions?
of course i am sure they do bother to hear what i've got to say, and try to
"understand."but like what i said earlier, most of the time people do think that they are right.
so even though they can
"understand" and lend a listening ear,
they will never be convinced by me, because they are already convinced by themselves!
likewise for myself, i would never accept what they say entirely even though i throw in the towel.
so all in all, i don't think i am wrong all the time, but maybe now and then.
everybody has different logics and ideas, and it is hard to convince what i feel, especially when i can barely express myself properly.
i guess i just have to think more,
much more, before i speak.
after all, i know i am a pretty irrational person. :P
but that will be another issue for another day.
alright! i've said enough! back to mugging..
dreadful dreadful dreadful..
hope today's party at MOS will be fun at least..
ciao.
scripted at 1:57 PM
