// Wednesday, May 3
so many things have happened since the last time i blogged.
but that's 'cos ive been bogged down by tons and tons of work to do.
tzarist has been taking up most of my time,
and it got so complicated and tiring,
it was really taking a toll on me.
and my studies suffered the most.
so today is the day when i wash my hands of tzarist for a while.
until my A leves are over at least.
i'll miss her, but i have my priorities.
so till november, goodbye tzarist!
and hello A levels..
(how very dreary)
so anyway, i was looking back at my 18 years of life,
and compared it with tomorrow.
and i realised something.
my future is as bleak, as it was for the past 18 years of my life.
nothing was ever clear to me.
and for the next 24 hours,
i know it will stay the same.
i lose control, 'cos my heart always take charge.
it's so scary just thinking how i cant control myself.
i always wish to be stronger, but as everyone knows, it's just talk.
so how can i change my tomorrow?
how can i take control of myself?
will doing well in my As be the stepping stone to a clearer future?
will a big change, like going overseas to study, change my tomorrow?
so many question marks..
oh wells..
i should go. 'cos i would probably get scolded for blogging this entry.
alright. till the next entry..
ciao.
scripted at 6:59 PM
