// Sunday, August 20
i've been blog surfing. something that i haven't been doing for a while. and after all the blogs i've read, i can say 3 out of 10 of them had entries that showed a hell lot of discontentment for school. seriously, almost all of us are suffering in this stupid institution. when is MOE ever going to abolish this rigid, suffocating, pointless junior college education. no matter how i view it, i just can't find any benefitting factor it provides us, other than a damn passport to go to the University. what the hell does A levels indicate? nothing. intelligence? more like perseverance. it doesn't represent anything. and the worst part is it doesn't even guide you in any way what course of study you wish to take in the future. almost 90 percent of the students in school are still lost souls with no direction in life, no purpose, no goal, so what the fuck are we doing in JC? there's no sufficient variety for us to choose from the start. just science or arts. give me a break. how boring can you get. i really don't know how those people do it. those who actually enjoy JC and think it's the best times of their lives. anyone who actually feels this way, please tell me how i can feel the same way. 'cos this claustrophobia is killing me. ugh.
alright. i don't know why i have so much angst all of a sudden. maybe 'cos i have a physics mock tomorrow which i haven't prepared for. maybe 'cos i know deep inside that i will definitely screw up my life even when i know it and have the power to do something about it. but what exactly can i do? work hard? ha. what's the use of working hard when you'll still be disappointed in the end? what's the point when you are still going to flung it all. i'm not cut out for this. i swear. my brain is rusty, and i refuse to get my engine started for this damn A levels. its bloody a waste of time and effort. fuck it. ugh. fuck.
scripted at 9:17 PM
